WordPress? Why not?

Hello guys! Come to think of it, it’s my first ever blog! So please bear with me, I’m not very good at this. I’m just a mere beginner here. Stop the chitchat, read on and enjoy!

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WordPress got me like WOW, as in ‘awesomeness’ is the best word to describe it. This was just introduced to me by my classmate also my friend. He noticed that I am into writing specifically poems and he said that I should try WordPress and BOOM! I started my own blog and it’s super fun! I fell in love with writing, everything my heart wanted to say was just typewritten and it’s very heart warming. The utter presence of my website being up is more than the definition of happiness for me.

Actually, I got a hard time finishing the look on my blog because it feels like a little bit dull with no pictures and interesting things posted. That’s why I started writing this. The very reason of starting a blog is sharing my thoughts with you guys! And also, writing is my passion, it fuels my soul with just merely happy vibes.

How about you guys?

What pushed you to start your very own blog? Just for fun or it’s more like passion driven because of curiosity?

– Nicole ❤

“This is just COVID, We are Filipinos”

This is a reflection paper for my Developmental Psycholgy major subject as a 1st year BS Psychology student, I hope that it will inspire you and inform you at the same time. The information and thoughts that I have written have been derived from Papalia’s book and directly from my silly fragile heart. All the love ❤

photo not mine, all the credits belongs to the owner.


 

No matter how hard I look at the country’s situation right now, it is still surreal, and we seem like we are in a movie being aired all over the world, dealing with the same dreading sickness that spread like dust being swept from the floor. Yes, I admit it, that I am really alarmed and scared to the fact that we are in a pandemic period wherein we have no choice but to stay inside our homes for a month, or maybe not, then afterwards, how will it all be? This is not normal anymore and it will never be. In this pandemic season, I have realized a lot of stuff not just in what Sir Jet allowed us to do, but realizations in the life we are all living right now, maybe, just a little, we take some things for granted. Psychology has been an important matter right now, especially in terms of the people’s mental health and well-being. Let us admit it, we are all scared and paranoid about everything that is happening in this crisis that we are all facing as a developing country. Questions asked and uncertainties thought of are being thrown like a curious kid who won’t stop questioning his/her parents about the existence of things and whatnots. We are all affected, the rich and the poor, the educated and the uneducated, the wise and the ignorant, the good and the bad, all of us. No exceptions, and that is the reality. In this paper, I will give emphasis to the two groups of people in the society and these are the people belonging in the middle and late adulthood. Think of our loved ones aging from 40 to 65 years old, these are the middle adults and our grandparents who are aging from 60 to any certain old age are the ones who belong in the late adulthood. And the truth is, they are the people who are greatly affected by the global conflict we are all facing and conquering at the same time. Many in the middle age today are at the peak of their careers or chosen endeavors in life wherein difficult choices are made and many plans are being created in order to be more successful, more productive, more matured, and more of their best selves. That is why in this period of their lives, they are having a hard time on how to maintain and continue the paths they are currently walking on. Jobs are being stopped, companies are being temporarily shut down, establishments are forced to close, small entrepreneurs have no choice but to accept the fact that they cannot sell on their actual stores, and many more. It is really saddening and alarming as well because all of them now are thinking of ways to provide for their families and sustain all their needs for daily living.

With increasing age, it is common for middle-aged adults to experience different sorts of perceptual declines, including hearing and visual difficulties. In this age, diseases and easily acquired sensory declines tend to occur. This people experience wearing eyeglasses to read their favorite books, draw near or far something in order to see, listening to people and other stuff may be hard at times, extreme activities as well will not be their thing, and many more. This quarantine may allow them more to magnify these complications instead of the betterment of their physical health, but in some, the ECQ made them more conscious, more careful, and more aware of their bodies because they spent their time in exercising and eating healthy food just like my mom who always join me in my Zumba sessions and my Lola too who joined us in simple dances too while we are currently in our daily Zumba routines. They may experience poor eyesight, have brittle bones, less hearing capacity, and other stuff, and yet they still try their best to be fit and active this season.  The aging brain can be described in two ways: slow functioning and trouble in handling multiple tasks. Just like my mom, she tend to be forgetful at times and tend to forget the next step on a process or the next ingredient on a cooking recipe. My Lola, on the other hand, shares the same thing but a little bit worse, she sometimes forgot my name or even called me someone I am not, and she also forgets things easily. For an instance, she asked for the number of our relative then saved it on her phonebook, after a few minutes, she will ask again about the number then realized that she already got it a while ago. Also, my mom is having hot flashes which mean that she instantly feels like she was being in extreme heat, she also has mood swings and often irritated with us (her daughters) due to irresponsibility in household chores, and that is because she is menopause already and by that Sophie (my sister) and I will always understand her in those times offering her a massage or a soothening podcast/music with a cup of coffee. Middle-aged adults despite having healthy bodies, this midlife stage experience an increase in different health problems or deeply concerned about their overall health. They may have less energy exerted than in their youth and are most likely to experience occasional or chronic pains and fatigue in their bodies. My mom, being 50 years old, is diagnosed with scoliosis and most probably an osteoporosis as well, but we need to bring her to an orthopedic doctor to be sure after this pandemic. Lola being in her late 70s already have numerous maintenance medicines because of her high blood or hypertension and other health needs. Mama and Lola who belong in the groups I mentioned above, are the main focus of my reflection paper, and they showed greater concern to doing things such as allotment of 15 minutes a day spent in moderate exercise such as walking on our village or Zumba dance workouts, being busy in housework, watering the plants and fixing the garden, or simply doing the things they are most happy about and enjoyed at. These can prevent unhealthy weight gain in women like them. In these ages, stress is a very emphasized matter in which in their everyday living, they can feel and experience it especially in pressing and negative times of their lives. An example of it is my Lola being so stressed about going home, she desperately wanted a quarantine pass, but we always remind her that she is a senior citizen and she cannot go out because she is the most at risk in acquiring the killer virus. Every day she is looking forward to being outside and go home in her house in Pampanga, she hopes that she can return and take care of her plants and go back to her work as school consultant in different schools she is assigned to. I am sad because she really wants to breath the outside air and it is really disappointing because we still have to endure a lot of days or even months again to be at home so that we can all be safe from this virus that is destroying people’s lives globally. Emotions and mental health in this life stages are an important aspect to be focused and given attention to because emotions may predict the overall productivity of these people and mental health promotes the well-being of these middle-aged and late-aged individuals. In our case at home, when Mama has a good mood and wakes up energized and happy, she tends to do a lot of productive stuff like cooking our food, washing our clothes, sweeping the floor and the yard, sewing clothes, reading different motivational books, and a lot more while when Lola gets worried about the pandemic and always questions the government’s actions in flattening the curve, she tend to sit all day with a frown on her face, unproductive and anxious at her current situations and only does a few reading from her books. I also noticed to them the fluid intelligence and crystallized intelligence (Horn & Cattell) in different situations in our home. For fluid intelligence, I always noticed Lola making decisions based on the culture her mother and ancestors instilled in her and the education she attained, example of it is the term lamig. For her when we experience certain body pains, she will say that it is mainly because of lamig and she believes in that and we explained it to her that it is not true, but still she insisted that it is a fact. For crystallized intelligence, I also noticed this in Lola, due to old age she has highly regards to her ancestors and the beliefs they are practicing so when we wanted to correct her in the things she is wrong about, she still wants to stick with her principles because it is her culture and education that matter greatly than our constructive criticisms on her actions. Honestly, I am amazed with Mama and Lola’s personalities because they have postformal thoughts and the feature of it called as an integrative nature. Adults takes part logic with intuition and emotion; they combine interesting facts and ideas; and they compare new information with what they already know. They interpret what they read, see, or hear in terms of its meaning from their own perspectives. Instead of accepting something at face value or only looking at the physical aspect, they analyze it carefully through their life experiences and lessons from the past. Some of the things I remembered about this is when Mama, Sophie, and I had a heart-to-heart talk. It was so nice listening to Mama who already has a lot to say and share to us who are only in our youth. We talked about men and their intentions to single ladies like us, her past experiences in work and schooling that made her the woman she is now, and the realizations and inspirations that keep her going in this tiresome life. These instances allow them to value their lives more and look at themselves in a way that they are already reaching or already reached the best version of their lives or achieved the dreams they dreamt of ever since they were children. Education and creativity worked hand in hand as well this pandemic period, adults spend time doing things they never thought they can do. In my family’s situation, we do such things like creating new recipes, doing stuff to repair things that could be repaired by handy men, painted some stuff to make it look like new, fixed the interiors of the house, cooked puto or even baked goodies, and many more which allowed us to divert our minds off the sad reality we are facing at this moment. Literacy training are also being done because adults tend to love discovering new things that spark their interest and make their souls happy such as reading recipe books, journaling, reading the Bible, listening to podcasts, watching self-care videos, and a lot more. Erikson’s seventh psychosocial stage is generativity versus stagnation. Generativity can be expressed through parenting and grandparenting, teaching or mentorship, productivity or creativity, self-development, and maintaining of their own lives in their own worlds. The virtue of this period is care. In some instances, Mama and Lola would voluntarily contact the people whom they think needed help in this period. Honestly, a lot of phone calls were made and even text messages in order to ensure the safety and complete provision of our loved ones in many far places. Married people tend to be happier at middle age than people with any other marital status and that is why even Mama and Paping (my father) are far away from each other right now, Paping is in Saudi Arabia as an OFW rig mechanic, they are still happy and overflowing with love for each other because they really care and value the relationship they have as a married couple. Middle-aged parents tend to remain involved with their adult children just like in our family now, and most are happy with the way their children turned out and grown up to be. Problems may arise over grown children’s need to be treated as trustworthy adults and parents’ over concern about them. According to Erikson, the eighth and final stage of psychosocial development, in which adults in late adulthood either achieve a sense of integrity of the self by accepting the meaningful lives they have lived, and thus accept death, or yield to despair that their lives have been outlived. In this late adulthood phase, realizations and life lessons kick in. The elders tend to question the legacy they are about to leave once they experienced death. In this pandemic season, I noticed Lola being not normal or not being who she really is, maybe because she misses the world outside or the aging as well, but I realized in that age, she should be enjoying her life and not being restricted in a home where she only has limited space and a few errands to do. She may have grey hairs, no teeth at all, have wrinkles and fine lines all over, have weak bones and slow walking pace, saggy face and skin too, weakened grips and simplified acts, I realized that she needs to take note of her mental health as well because she is really sad in these crucial times. By taking care of it, I know that she will be away from memory problems and mental illnesses like Parkinson’s and Alzheimer’s diseases which will greatly affect one’s own body and reasoning and the people around him/her that take care and love her dearly. Lola surprisingly has retired as a public school principal but still enjoys being at work, sometimes, she likes living alone, but we wanted her to be with us so that she can be really taken care of. She is already widowed but contented with the relationships she have with her daughters and son who are always there to keep her safe and comfortable in everything she does, these relationships should be nurtured because it affects the whole being of Lola just like the other elders with their social relationships. I know for a fact that the most vulnerable this pandemic season are the children and the people who already have their own senior citizen cards or simply the elders because they only wanted to be at ease and worry-free in the middle of the uncertainty. I hope that the questions they had in mind will soon have answers and I hope too that everyone will be safe from it and no Filipino should be harmed nor killed with it as well. This situation we have right now might seem that there is no light in the end of the tunnel, but to me there is and there will always be.

As a psychology student and a mental health advocate in these challenging times, I really try my best to keep all the people’s minds calm and worry-free at my home and also the people who are not physically present with me right now (friends, classmates, relatives, loved ones, church mates and many more), which means less anxiety and stress felt to ease the heaviness or the burdens they are carrying that I have or have not known anything about. I always encourage people or lift them up, also always asks them of how they really are and allow them to talk and I will patiently listen, I always share the good news instead of sharing information that will create fear among people, and I do productive tasks at home like reading motivational and psychological books, cooking dishes too, baking different pastries, doing workout sessions, reflecting all the time by journaling, creating poems, and a lot more; all of these are shared through my messenger so that my loved ones can do it as well. But I would just like to emphasize that mental health is as much as important as physical health. That is why in all my social media accounts I give time to share my works and other people’s thought bubbles on the pictures I am posting in those accounts, like my IG account (@colethatsparks) in which I post there different poems to encourage and my blog (www.atarahxx.wordpress.com) that shares my different life experiences. In a nut shell, I may not be a licensed psychometrician as of now or the most intelligent girl in town but, I can feel it that it is my responsibility to keep people sane this ECQ which means that I should be a beacon of love, hope, truth, wisdom, and understanding all the time because that is what a true Filipina is, a fighter that will never be defeated by just a virus.

Day 2 of my depression journey.

With a heart beating fast, I went to school at exactly 7:30 am, not knowing the fact that I have no friends to converse with that time. At least, I had the courage to get up and attend the NSTP dry run. I don’t know if they noticed, but my hands are trembling while I use the tweezers to get the cotton wick but still it was a success, I was able to get the highest rank of 20 and we also had a perfect dry run score in the community engagement. The feeling was good. Then ethics came, it was fun as well, it was good because we finished it. Then pe came too, I am nervous again, my whole system has gone knots but I still thank Sir Tropa for always considering us even though those print outs are late submissions. To end the whole class day, I finished answering the long test exam in Dev Psych not knowing if I will be able to pass but still it was done, it was over, that was important. For the highlight of my day, it was definitely Gab and his smile plus the earring made him look more manly and mature, I guess? He also looked fresh and I know that he is really trying hard in his studies and by that I am really proud of him and I hope that he’ll see, that he too, is a work in progress. A masterpiece in the making. It was definitely a happy memory, the holding hands part, the silly laughs, the spicy KFC fried chicken and that liquorish iced tea, the 80’s game with a rambling cute character, and of course the tight hugs in front of Manila Cathedral, it was breathtaking. If my eyes can capture all the things I see, it will really be an infinite series of picturesque views and beautiful people. Good thing also because my mom is not angry with me being with him, that is definitely an achievement for me. She even told me that I knew my limits while saying kilig words for me and I should know how to handle these sort of things especially those romantic ones. I really thank my family specially Mama for loving me unconditionally. Their love for me is really overflowing. I did not thought of it as something possible to happen but thank God it did, things turned out to be pretty well even though I have this kind of mental state, kinda messy but still good things are happening and life will continually be life. Honestly, I really miss him, I really miss Gabriel, I really really do and I am hoping that there will be a future for us, living our succesful lives and living the life we truly desired. Pure joy and contentment, nothing more, nothing less.

Day 1 of me dealing with my depression.

It has been a while, maybe some are asking, why is she still not writing or why did she suddenly stopped? or Why did she suddenly disappeared? But to tell you guys, every day has been a consistent battle of getting up and lying down. It has been a battle of continuing or just stopping.

I am a first year college student and I am taking up BS psychology, ironic right? A psychology major having depression? Oh well, it sucks, dealing with monstrous thoughts like it already dictated my whole day. But everything went clear when I had the courage to tell my mother, that I am not okay, that I am always sad, that I have no appetite, I have no motivation to do things, I no longer enjoy the things that make me happy, I can not sleep peacefully, and I am always vulnerable and it is quite alarming, I know for a fact that I am not functioning normally and every day is really a struggle.

I am diagnosed with depression. That is the truth. But I will not be ashamed of it.

Honestly, I am thanking myself for still going to school even if it is very tiring. I thank Steph for always being there and understanding my present situation. I thank  Bob, Aro, Darwin, Lance, Steph again, and Aya (my P.E. dance team) for making me laugh this past morning. The whole exercise routine and teaching them was a different experience, in my SHS years, I am always the one who is instructed to dance and follow them, not the one who teaches them. The 4th floor hallway was filled with laughter, sweat, and little arguments about what steps should be made and luckily we made a funny and simple aerobic dance routine. I also thank myself for scoring 42 out of 50 in my MMW long test, that is something to be proud of, right? I also thank Kuya Ced for buying me my dinner plus escorting me in buying my medical syrup and also listening to me talk while hot seating me too, I dunno if that is the right term for that but yeah he kept asking me what is my definition of joy blah blah blah, examining me and still listening even if I am confusing and at this point in time I have no idea. I just really wanted to be genuinely happy but I know that it is a process and I have to be patient with myself. I also thank Lyngel and Desiree, my dorm mates for listening to me talk as well, they had no idea that I’ll have this but yep I’m good at pretending that I am happy even though I am not. Still it was good because Lyngel celebrated her 19th birthday and she is already a lady because she is having a little crush now but she is having a hard time admitting it. All is well, Lyngel ordered fries while Des ordered carbonara and a dark cocoa frappe and I just ordered a mango cheesecake frappe, I wanted ice cream but dairy won’t help me now. It is a good experience as well because they accepted me with open arms and listen to me without judgment, I just really love those girls. My mom called me as well and upon hearing her voice, it seems like I am about to cry, everything that is happening in my life right now either makes me laugh so hard, or makes me cry or sob so hard and it is really confusing.  Paping also knew my situation and upon looking at his messages, I cried again. Why do I always cry? My eyes have always been like this since vacation and the start of 2nd sem.

Right now, everything is a blur and I am really trying my best to be okay, to act normal, and to be not so stressed as possible. Slow progress is still progress. In time, I will definitely be okay and I’ll plaster a real smile on my face, no pretensions, just pure joy.

-nicole

 

Life of a College Freshie

Hey guys! A preview of my college life is found below. Hope you like it. All the love ❤


 

I remember crying because of not passing in UP. I remember Ate Thea bringing me Chowking halo-halo and chao fan for dinner because I could not stop crying. From there, I have no choice but to study in Colegio De San Juan De Letran, a school I did not like from the very beginning. It feels like I am still in high school because of the kids roaming around but nevertheless I accepted the fact that this school is the only option I am left to pick.

First day, I am quite nervous but hey, I found a new family, Antonnette, Steph, and Harquel. All are different personalities but have the kalog aura. We had so much fun the first day, we ate at the canteen and took a lot of selfies to cherish the moment. Antonnette even gave me some money because of my insufficient allowance plus a book that is in my wish list. Steph also gave me her old shoes and Harquel gave me her drumsticks. They really are a blessing to me.

I think the first major experience I had was when my professor in Understanding the Self told me ‘very good’ 3 times in a row, that is an achievement right? It felt so surreal but it was really fulfilling.

Antonnette also had the chance to treat us on her 21st birthday. She allowed us to eat in Samgyupsalamat around UST. It was really delicious and the whole experience was just wholesome. I wish Harquel was there and there is soju accompanying us on our table.

Also, I joined Letran Band wherein I truly have no plans to join in the first place but due to scholarship I decided to try. The first training was tough, I did not expect that it could be this hard. We ran around Intramuros, did push ups, squats, burpees, and a lot more. But the highlights are the new friendships, the cool handshakes, and the funny introduce yourself portions. All is well. Then we had a boodle fight on our second training, I brought chicharon and it was really really fun. After bidding our goodbyes, my spoken word team video shoot here in Intramuros and had a lot of fun exploring the walled city.

I also had the chance to donate my blood for the very first time, it was October 27, 2019 and I had Nino to accompany me. The needle was big and the process of insertion and removal were painful but all of it was worth it. I had the chance to help which is truly a privilege.

One of best biglaang galas too is the Manila International Book Fair, the tickets are free because Dr. Dasig gave me one when I answered in our recitation. Nino accompanied me and I bought 3 books for only 200 pesos. He also bought me a bundle of special papers to write or do calligraphy whatsoever. I also had my Muji card. Bonus part is I got to see Mom and Paping in SM MOA because my mom fetched Paping in the airport and they went there to eat and to give me my allowance which allowed me to buy those books.

All in all, college life is tiring but it exceeded my expectations. Letran was not my choice but it is God’s hands that placed me in this situation. I am very excited in what He has in store for me.

-Atarahxx ❤

Kaya mo ‘yan

Hello loves! This was a piece I wrote months ago due to the reason that I am feeling very blue that night. Honestly, I don’t remember the very reason I did this but anyways, hope you like it. All the love ❤


 

Hindi ko alam
Kung bakit ganito
Bakit malungkot?
Parang kanina lang ang saya saya
Bakit ngayon ganito na?

Hindi ko alam
Bakit ‘yung puso ko nadudurog
Tila ba boteng tipak tipak na ang bubog
Hindi ko alam bat ganto ‘yung mga mata ko
May kislap pero
Maya maya may luha nang tumutulo

Hindi ko talaga alam
Kung bakit lumilipad ang isip sa kalawakan
Pero parang wala namang patutunguhan
Naglalakbay sa kawalan
Lunod na lunod na sa kalungkutan

Ang saya saya ko kanina pero bat ganon?
Binawi na agad ng mundo yung saglit na kasiyahan
Binawi agad ng mundo ‘yung mga matang wala nang iniiyakan

Hindi talaga patas ang buhay
Maraming sugat na lumalatay
Marami ring alaalang babaunin habambuhay

Salamat
Sa pagiging matatag
Sa pagiging mabuti
Sa pagiging matapang

Kakayanin mo ‘to
Maraming nagmamahal sa’yo
‘Di mo lang napagtatanto

At isa na roon si Kristo.

 

-atarahxx ❤

Singleness is a Blessing

Hey guys! It has been a while, like really months have passed since I last posted but you know, your girl is a freshie in college! It is hard to adjust but I am trying my best to still maintain this vlog. Anyways, hope you like it. All the love ❤


 

Bakit kaya single pa ako?

Madalas napapaisip ako, bakit nga ba ako walang boyfriend? ‘Yung mga kaibigan ko may kanya-kanyang jowa tapos ako heto wala pa rin. Naiinip na ako, napapagod na akong maghintay na dumating ‘yung taong nakalaan para sakin. Nakakasawa nang maghintay, lagi na lang akong nasasaktan.

Sila, kilig na kilig tuwing gabi kasi may kausap, ako naman eh tulog agad kasi wala talagang nagbaka sakaling kumausap. Sila, may mga bulaklak at tsokolate sa araw ng mga puso, ako, ayun tulala, nasa isang sulok nagmamasid sa mga kinikilig na babaeng tulad ko. Sila, masaya pero ako heto nagiisip ng mga solusyon sa milyong mga problema. Bakit nga ba? Bakit nga ba ako mag-isa? Ay teka, mag-isa nga ba talaga? Hindi ata.

Sa season nang pagiging single ko, napakarami kong napagtanto. Mas marami kong oras para tuklasin ang aking sarili sa halip na magmahal ng taong ‘di ako siguradong mamahalin ako nang totoo. Mas nagkaroon ako ng oras pagtibayin ang kalakasan ko at palakasin ang mga kahinaan ko. Natuto kong dumepende sa iisang tao, sa iisang taong kukumpleto ng buhay ko. Sa iisang taong laman ng puso ko. Sa iisang taong nagbigay tibok nito. Walang iba, kundi si Kristo.

Masaya na ako sa kung ano ako ngayon, wala mang boyfriend, mayroon namang pamilyang nagmamahal nang lubos, mga kaibigang nagbibigay kilig, mga churchmates na palaging nandyan, at higit sa lahat si Lord na kailanman hindi ako iiwan. Alam kong darating ako sa puntong magmamahal ako nang higit pa sa inaasahan ko pero ayaw kong magmadali. Mayroon at mayroong Siyang hinandang magandang kwento para sa akin at patuloy akong maghihintay doon na alam kong magiging worth it basahin.

-atarahxx ❤

The Perfect Date: A movie review

And I am back with something new, and I just finished watching The Perfect Date in the Netflix app, and luckily I got so inspired I ended up sharing my thoughts about it. I hope you will like it. All the love❤


I guess this concludes my hopeless romantic vibes in my body, oh well, just kidding. I am still that hopeless romantic girl hoping to have a guy that will truly love me for who I am.

But, the perfect date made me realize one thing, there is no such thing as finding happiness from someone I adored or something I really want to have rather, happiness is definitely found by being the true me.

Disregarding the fact of the plans I have for my future or the dreams I really aspired to happen as well as the people’s opinions about me. All of them will definitely not matter. Why?

Simply because, pretending to be someone I am not will leave me hanging and lost in this cruel world. I may not have the richest family or the most beautiful face as well as a handsome boyfriend but the reality that I am loved by my family, friends, and the people that are really close to my heart is enough to keep me going in this tough life.

Just like in the movie, we are all in search for our true selves but the truth is we really do not need to depend on everything the world offers but instead allow every moment, every instance, and every memory in our lives to be as intimate and genuine as we encountered it.

For those true feelings and real encounters will make us who we are. Those things are what made me, me and I will never be ashamed of the fact that I am just an ordinary girl, confused in where will she be studying in college, but I am that girl who always strives to seek happiness in every detail my life has to offer.

Worldy things may fade and I had the chance to pretend, but I will never ever do that for I wanted to be genuinely happy by just accepting me and the person I am becoming to be.

Taguan

And I’m back! Here is another Filipino poem intended for the youth. This was created for our youth series (Larong Pinoy) in our church, Jesus the Living Water Church Baliwag. Hope you all like it. All the love❤


Tagu-taguan
Maliwanag ang buwan
Pagbilang kong sampu,
Nakatago na kayo
Isa
Dalawa
Tatlo
Apat

Sa likod ng mga ngiti
Ay ang mga kabigatang nakakubli
Mga matang punong-puno ng pighati
Mga labing salitang ‘tulong’ ang iminumutawi

Simulan natin sa kanya
Puno man ng sigla ang kanyang mukha,
Pero ang totoo,
Hirap na hirap sa eskwela
Hirap na hirap kung paano ba siya
tatanggapin ng kanyang ama’t ina?
Laging gumugulo sa kanyang isip ang mga katagang,
‘Wala kasi akong kwenta, anoman ang gawin ko para sa kanila’

Siya naman,
Isang dilag na puspos ng kagandahan
Ngunit lubos na kinaiinggitan
Pilit man siyang lumalaban,
Kamay ng kaaway
Ay ayaw siyang pakawalan

Siya rin,
Kumikislap ang kaniyang mga mata,
Ngunit nakatagpo ng maling pagmamahal
Sa taong hindi naman para sa kanya
Tatay niyang inom dito, inom doon at panay ang sigarilyo
Nanay namang panay sugal, itinuring na itong kanyang mundo
Tanong niya sa sarili,
Ano ba, paulit-ulit na lang ba ito?

At siya,
Gustong-gustong maging masaya
Nababalisa at walang wala nang pag-asa
Kailan ba matatapos ang lahat nang ito?
Bulong niya,
Ayaw ko na
Itigil na natin ‘to
Hindi ko na talaga kaya

Napakaraming dahilan para sumuko
Pero
Higit na mas marami ang Kaniyang mga pangako

Magtago man tayo sa Kaniyang paningin
Patuloy pa rin Niya tayong hahanapin

Dahil sa simula pa lang,
Nahanap na Niya tayo
Noong nagpapako Siya
Sa Krus ng kalbaryo.

It’s Not Enough That He’s a Christian

Dear ladies,

This is for all of you❤

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I’m sorry but you read it right and I mean it.

It’s not enough that he’s a Christian.

Beloved, you need to hear the truth.

Repent

1. There’s a lot of nice Christian boys, but not a lot of Godly men.
You see, a lot of guys out there can easily serve in the ministry. You can spot them in church every Sunday. Hitting the drums so passionately and leading the worship in all its honor and glory. Yet, are these really the marks of a guy whose life is fully surrendered to Jesus Christ? Are you seeing him leading younger men towards a greater encounter with the Lord? Are his words a reflection of God’s grace or better yet, do you feel God’s grace every time you talk to Him? Does he spend more time reading his bible rather than being cozy in the comfort of late night fellowships? Does he…

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Sophia in a World Full of Juans

Hey guys! It’s been a very looooooong time since I last updated so I will be sharing with you my feature article in my Philosophy class. I hope you will like it. All the love.


 

When a flower blooms in a garden, its beauty is shown incredibly. When the sun sets in the afternoon, its orange and pink colors are blended in a magical way. When the clouds moved in the sky like cotton balls spreading on thin air, do you wonder why does it move? Why do they become that beautiful? Why do people exist? What on earth is happening in the surroundings? For some reasons, Philosophy might explain that.

People see through the naked eyes but Philosophy sees what can be looked beyond existence. Things we cannot explain, things we cannot fathom, and things we cannot understand, Philosophy will make a way to decipher all things that the human minds cannot explain. Understanding life and its people seems to be a hard task but when you look closely and have that burning flame of desire to know the truth about everything your curious mind wants to know, you are a philosopher, a lover of wisdom, and a person who is eager to learn and does not want to stop.

Curiosity kills the cat but it allows it to find something he did not expect to find. Something more than words can express, something more than the mind can fathom, and something more than a scientific explanation. That is the power of philosophy, to help people understand situations they did not know how to handle. It brings light to darkness, gives stars to an empty night sky, and gives clarity to the confusion.

Philosophy will not be complete without its consisting branches. Just like a luxuriant tree, in order for it to be useful to people, the branches should be thick, leafy, and should be able to bear fruits. Have you ever asked someone if what he or she said is really the truth, or is the knowledge given by someone is confirmed or verified, or maybe wondered what the real definition of beauty is. Sometimes, have you ever asked yourself if your reasoning is valid and acceptable or asked if you have the right reasoning in a certain situation. Have you? If you strongly agree, these branches will really be a big help. These branches are Ethics, Aesthetics, Epistemology, Logic, and Metaphysics which serve as the helping hands for exploration and discovery of the world by Philosophy.

The human mind is very mighty, it can destroy and create at the same time but also it can be watered in order to grow and be full of knowledge and most importantly wisdom. Human minds are very complex yet it needs philosophy to be renewed, to have a different perspective, and to understand the world in all aspects.

As human persons, they tend to ask a lot of questions and for assurance they seek answers to them because of their overflowing curiosity. Philosophy gives answers that they did not expect to hear, answers that give glow to their darkened and confused minds. It is the key to understanding the world in the whole picture and also the key to wisdom that cannot be stolen from people as time continues to move in its very fast pace.

“Science is what you know; philosophy is what you don’t know,” according to Bertrand Russell. Keep this in mind; it is worth a thousand words explained by Scientists. Philosophy is something that will strike your mind and your soul and lets you see the universe in a whole exquisite perspective. A view that will ignite millions of minds to seek answers to the never ending questions, philosophy it is.

-atarahxx ❤